6 month inventory

The last six months have been amazingly life changing for me. I've dropped all pretense of living day by day. I've done things that I would never have thought of doing, or was too afraid to do, or was told by others that I could not do. I have no idea why this was on my mind but I was sitting in the backyard daydreaming and...well, even though today wasn't a very good day...whatever.

In review...


I've finally gone to L.A. (twice) and neither time did I go to Disneyland or any other theme park.

I've visited Damon, finally. A piece of my heart lives in Arizona and it's nice to finally be able to visit, even under the extremely sad, emergency circumstances that brought me there. I already miss everyone there.

Of course, I've gone other places, too. Mostly the Bay Area, but nothing new. Finally got to see the National in SF.

I was the lead female actress in a short exploitation horror film - the DVD will be released sometime this summer. Who'd have thought I'd have the nerve for that?

I've met SO many people that, had I continued on the life path I was on, I would never have been allowed to meet. I am eternally grateful for all my new friends and even more grateful to those friends that stuck with me through the rough time I was going through last year. You are all so much better friends than I am. I love you all.

I've mended broken friendships and come to terms with the friendships that needed to be broken.

I've learned that broken hearts actually do mend and they don't stay broken forever. Not all men are unworthy of the oxygen on this planet (though I still believe this for a large percentage...)

I finally belive that I really -can- take care of myself (and my family). With that knowledge I am confident that I won't have to rely on anyone but me.

I am capabale of great things -- if only I try.

I've tried out actually celebrating American holidays. I actually got my first christmas tree this past year and made my own ornaments. I liked it.

I've done things for ME!

Now...back to doing things for others. (It's actually quite fulfilling...)